A letter to my younger self

Hi raya, hope you're doing good.. this is you from the future.. i hope that you are happy, but still I would like to tell you something which might make you surprised or maybe learn many things from me.. 

The first thing I want you to learn is that you should always be ready to let go of people.. Because people who leave you making you desperate for them come to your life only to teach a lesson.. that's kind of like a crash course experience in personality development for you and so If people leave you don't care because of those people can leave you easily without even thinking about you and thinking about whether you will be hurt them why should you do their role instead ? Are you practicing monoacting? 

So the 1st thing I told you was to let go of people when they leave you too because u can't carry it as a burden for too long and sometimes it's good to get some weight off your shoulders and one more thing is you should never leave people who hold on to you.. Create meaningful relationships not just random bonds.. random bonds are good but still it should be a trustworthy relationship..

The next thing I wanted to tell you about is to adjust ... Adjust everything which happens to you.. people should be adjusting life when it is hard.. remember I know that u are still believing that life has only downs and no ups.. I'm still facing the down side but I feel like I've been improving a lot lately.. i feel like there is a transformation in my soul though it's late it's okay.. you atleast learnt it right ? So it's really great.. 

The third thing is regarding "forgiveness"... Forgiveness for something which hurt you isn't that easy to ask about.. Don't forgive someone if they ask you to forgive them or when they apologise to you but you can forgive them when you forget about the bad thing they did to you .

Now, about life, You need to adjust. Not settle. But adjust.

Sometimes life feels like one long downhill ride. I know you’ve told yourself this a million times: “Why is everything always bad for me?” But look closely. Even on the worst days, you’re still standing, right? You’re still learning. That means something.

There’s a strange beauty in pai,it stretches you. Transforms you.

Late or not, the change is real. The you writing this now is not the same person who cried quietly in a crowded room. You are growing. It’s slow. It’s frustrating. But it’s real.

Now… forgiveness.

It’s not just a word, it’s a battlefield.

Don't feel forced to forgive someone just because they apologized. Forgiveness isn’t a “yes” you owe anyone.

It’s not about them. It’s about when your heart no longer hurts remembering what they did.

Only when the pain starts to fade on its own—without being forced, without being rushed—only then forgive.

Until then, it’s okay to keep your distance.

It's okay to say: "I'm not ready to let this go."

You're not cold. You're just human. You're allowed to protect your peace.

And lastly, don't forget the smile emoji 🙂.

You used it so many times to hide the sadness in your heart.

People may have thought you were fine. But we both know what it really meant.

And it’s okay. You smiled through it anyway. That’s strength too.

I’m proud of you, even if you haven’t reached where you want to be yet.

Because the truth is, you’re not who you used to be.

You’re softer, but stronger.

And no matter what happens, keep this in mind:

You’re not meant to be understood by everyone. But you were always meant to be loved by yourself.

With all the versions of love you've ever needed,

—Raya